Tuesday, 26 August 2008
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ok good news for you ppl..
i declare myself free from the ban of com!!
yay^^ well,parents don't seem to care..they can't moniter me anyway..
so what's the point sneaking to the com..why not just declare myself unbanned liao??
haha..yep,like that also can...
ok,an update on what happened during the past few days..
last friday:
sch(sci class)----so fun!!
did the experiment with the acid & alkaline..
the colours are so beautiful lor..peiyun's one is so nice..
i only took a few pics..sob..
guides---very weird..
we everything all change lo..roll call is different now..we follow handbook inside de..
and we have to greet ppl differently le.."ma'am" is reserved for guiders only..
top four will be so-and-so CL..the other sec threes will be so-and-so PL..
hmm..it's weird..so used to calling them ma'am or by their name itself le..
ziyun/junying/grace/peixuan CL & yujia/samantha,etc PL??
errr...no comment..
yesterday:
after sch go coffee shop eat with 4 other ppl...
saw qian ci for a total of THREE TIMES..LOL..
1st time--7-11
2nd time--under the blocks
3rd time-- traffic light thr..
hohos..we seem to have a lot of affinity ya...hehe=D
then go find cat and play..ahh..all someone's idea..lol
confidence speaking..haiz..what can i say..i still can't get "tasks" right..
today:
ahh..i'm so suay!!
the first time i nvr hand in math homework hor..
then cher must pian pian go after this piece of hw today..=.=
how suay can i be lor...
she usually heck care de..argh..
oh ya..performance judging was not on monday..they postponed it to sat..
tmr will be full-dress rehearsal...o.O
sob..my grades are all dropping..
i so far only got b3/b4.. the rest i still dunno the grade yet..
geog & history shld be able to get at least an a2..^^
must work extra hard nxt term lo..
and mind you..i'm NOT rich..
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i really dunno what i'm thinking..
can't understand myself..the way my mind works..
i don't understand it one bit..
i really dunno why i'm feeling like this..
empty,empty,empty..
this is the only word that i can use to describe me now...
i know i'm loved..i know i have a wonderful sch & family life..
but why do i feel this way??
i lack sth..maybe all these isn't enough..
or is it because i'm not contented and hard to please?? this i really dunno...
i really want a hug..an embrace so warm that it can lift my soul..
and brighten up my day..this is what i truly wish for...
seeking comfort and pleasure in the company of friends and seniors..
what more can one ask for??
a simple thing like a word of praise..laughter even..can make a person's day..
you may not know it..but it means everything to that person...
inspiring quote on monday:
it is easier to encourage a friend when he/she is down than to feel happy for a friend when he/she enjoys success..so those who are able to feel happy for one's friend when he/she succeeds is truly a noble person...
so i just wanna thank all the ppl who cheered for me...now i will learn to appreciate it more...^^
as what samantha always say.."ren bu ke mao xiang"..
yep,i do agree that it's true..i may look innocent and simple on the outside..
but inside..it's a whole new different person...
no one really understands this inner vanessa..not even me,myself...
i'm learning to love myself more...my life..my everything..
every cloud has a silver lining..all problems have a solution..
tell myself never to give up in all adversities...be strong^^
i'm different,i'm special...everyone is unique..
i know it..and i'm proud of it..coz this is uniquely me!!! made this during home econ..ai yo..out to kill me arh??so much pepper..
me wearing the googles..haha=D
YYY
for a better tomorrow;
-19:33
