FAREWELL NY! <3<3<3
thank you for giving me the best education of my life. it was a great blessing to be part of you(:

i am all too familiar with failures,loneliness,broken promises and bias in schools. but ive broken free of all tht in ny.

i genuinely feel a lot of love and support from this family. my principal takes the time n effort to talk to and surprise students, and even though im only one student out of at least 1600, ive spoken to him several times over the past 2 years. honestly, i dont think ive ever gotten a chance to speak to any of my past sch principals. so thank you mr k! <3 youre the only one who cares for us so much to continue gathering feedback to improve our time here. and srsly no other person would order excess food for everyone or even personally hand out apples n curry puffs arnd sch(: thankyou for blessing n caring for us:D

another source of motivation is definitely my teachers! with them, ive found back the drive which ive long forgotten i had. i was so drained from having teachers treat me like nth just because i was the bottom in class in upper sec. i didnt feel encouraged, i just continued feeling helpless. i felt ignored, as if they pretended i wasnt arnd so that maybe somehow, i wouldnt tarnish the class's enviable MSG. but things work differently in ny :D ms tan sy is the best and most dedicated teacher ive seen in a very long while! call it a hybrid class stereotype or what but its an open secret tht '13 isnt exactly a smart class. but seeing how we gradually climbed up the class rankings tgt, theres this sense of pride n satisfaction of belonging here. even though we fail to meet expectations at times, our teachers are quick to forgive n motivate us further. they nvr forget anyone, because they have faith tht we will all shine in our own right. ms tan writes those long messages on our exam papers to tell us nt to give up(: thank you teachers for helping me to dream big!

and to the friends tht ive made in this sch, thr are nt many of you but tht doesnt matter(: thankyou for protecting me because somehow u sensed tht i didnt know how to do tht myself. there wasnt a shortage of baddies over the past two years but thankyou for helping me forget my pain. i guess tht while i was feeling a bit more comfortable, u guys were hurting inside. to zy,c and ch, im blessed to be in the same grp as you guys n im sorry tht i couldnt fully comprehend how much frustration is involved when dealing with our 'gd friend'. but the closest friends i have, thankyou for nvr making me lonely. i was so used to eating and going home alone, and having a lifeless time in class in the past but you guys changed all tht :D i enjoyed all the times we teased each other, get excited over men and i love how we are able to strike a balance between getting totally serious while mugging and having fun. given tht my life is alw filled with drama and my coping mechanism is to voice it all out, you guys are alw thr to listen n support me even though i also find myself terribly annoying at times for doing tht.hahaha. you guys always got my back and tht lessened the heartache n betrayal i felt. in short, thank you jy,eh and sc for helping me find the balance in my life (: love you guys and i'll miss yall the most!! ):

without love, i really am nothing.
with your precious love, i'll be something.
thankyou for fighting personal battles n Alvls with me. its an end to an amazing 2 yrs tgt n i hope we'll do ourselves proud in march 2014 :D

lastly, thankyou God for putting me in this school or i wouldnt have experienced all these blessings(:

love is a powerful word.

these universities have impeccable timing in providing their morale boosters.  haha but im nt sure if im really up to it. will success slip past me once again? i could be fated to live in the shadows this time.

but i must admit, the feeling of getting tht package from nus is like scoring straight As already hahaha! im just feeling humbled and even though theres a high chance i wont be in the programme, at least i will dare to dream of it while fighting battles with my rremaining papers.

God's grace is amazing! (:
perhaps i shld use my scars to my own advantage. aft all, i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me!!
a week more to go! :D

after a week of roughing it out, this quote is apt. im starting to see the direction tht im heading towards, though i must say its extremely disappointing n it scares the daylights out of me. maybe its time i srsly considered the alternatives. but as long as theres still a chance, i'll seize it. forget whats done and FIGHT ON!

A lvls begin today for me! i hope i'll win some personal battles and gain sth meaningful out of this process. god knows if i will end up with the course i want but for now, may the odds be ever in our favour(: