Wednesday, 28 April 2010
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A 99.9% relatable kelly clarkson song(:
yes,no wonder there were tears.
ily(: even though you're already gone.
THE CONCERT WAS DAMN AWESOME CAN!
only a bit too short. LOL;D
JIAYOU FOR SA1!
I WILL TRY MY BEST NOT TO FAIL ANY SUBJECT THIS TIME.
GOOD LUCK :D
12papers in total. gosh
YYY
for a better tomorrow;
-21:45
Thursday, 22 April 2010
miracles do exist♥
what i bought during retail therapy(:
3 metres away, and a 5-second glimpse(((:
HAHA i'm just describing last fri@ backstage:DD
it means a lot to me♥
marking is fun.
but admin is so annoying.
and we dont even have cca now. GOSH
so hard to get info. i suspect i already exceeded 1000 smsD:
hm.things get thrust upon us at such a critical time.
no wonder some of us are so stressed out.
i dont get a lot of stuff.
so frustrating.
i'm so sorry to all those whom i've showed my displeasure to.
it's just that i'm so irritated that i've got so much things to do within a short time,
and no one seems to understand my situation.
therefore i'm thankful to a few ppl for
not holding a grudge against me.
your encouragement(: ♥
offering your help♥
it's so sweet of y'all;D it really does take some emotional baggage off(:
iloveyou. a lot. serious.
everytime life's being unfair to me,
your little actions and words come to me as miracles:D
you are a blessing. there's no denying that♥♥
YYY
for a better tomorrow;
-21:09
Monday, 19 April 2010
♥
OMG I'M GOING FOR KELLY CLARKSON'S CONCERT!
I LOVE YOU KIRAN! THANKS DEAR :D
actually, i also wanna go jay chou's concert:D
i've got someone who's willing to sponsor me, but i think i'll pass.
what a pity. know why?
cuz you're not the one i'm looking for.
there's no sense of security when i'm with you.
HAHA!
morning came to class, so damn freaky. cuz ___ was wearing specs. i mean like ALL of them were wearing specs and not contact lenses. like wow. LOL
turns out that it's er 'bespectacled day'? like wth man.
i think the guys pre arranged this. and kiran and i just happened to be lazy to wear contacts today. ROFL
today's after 3.30pm surrounding was so nolstagic.
i miss mz a lot sia!!
and then it rained like CATS AND DOGS.
HAHAH OMG PERINI SAID THAT PHRASE WHICH I HAVENT HEARD FOR CENTURIES :DD cuz they say it's cliche-.-
and i think we shld start thinking 'less romantic'.
cuz we will just be disappointed in the end. LOL
i mean, i'm just too dramaa. think too far ahead rofl
i kinda enjoy my TWM job. LOL, so far. ((:
and 传声筒 really works leh~!
*to andss ppl, it shld be known to them as 'telephone' *
after we tested it out during phy prac. LOL
someone pls pls pls make one and give it to me as my birthday present!
I WILL LOVE YOU FOREVER(:
vanessa is going back to being sentimental :D
and use yakult bottles if you wanna make one(:
say that 你要永远保护我！it's powerful if it comes from the right person(:
miracles do happen. even though it didnt come on 19 april 2010.
YYY
for a better tomorrow;
-21:22
Tuesday, 13 April 2010
♥
things i'll never say
-avril lavigne
~nanananananana~
i'm tugging at my hair,
i'm pulling at my clothes,
i'm trying to keep my cool
i know it shows
I"M STARING AT MY FEET,
my cheeks are turning red,
i'm searching for the words inside my head.
i'm feeling nervous, trying to be so perfect,
cuz i know you're worth it
you're worth it
yeah
(i'm staring at our feet :D love)
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i think i need a work phone :D
hm, so professional!! muahahah
ytd's sms conversations were damn funny!
drama mamas! gay smile(:
i'm so proud of myself.
i can actually join drama:D
although my dramatic talent is pretty unique and not what the cca is looking for-.-
same goes for choir. HAHA wth
speech day duty this fri! obviously i got motive la! LOL
YYY
for a better tomorrow;
-20:45
Friday, 9 April 2010
♥
it's strange to think the songs we used to sing, the smiles, the flowers everything, is gone. yesterday i found out abt you. even now just looking at you,
FEELS WRONG
i think i really have nth left to say abt this.
oh but i can see that ___ has grown very matured!
HAHA so damn proud :D
so maybe we all just need time.
immature behaviour that i displayed today:
-getting upset over the unfairness of life.
-irritated by pri sch kids who were bitching abt me
LOL. life is indeed unfair and tragic, so i gotta learn to accept it.
and no point fighting with those CHILDREN.
i live for myself. <-----actually this is rather ironic if you know the details of the 'unfairness thing'.
anyway today was such a strange day.
i was damn pissed off, then the tears started flowing.
but after complaining abt ____ and having hearty conversations with my darlings,
hey, it isnt so bad:D
i found the words inside me.so i could shout it out to the world.
so awesome.
i'm actually happy.
cuz i figured out what my heart is saying.
even though i know you'll never be able to hear it.
but it's nice rmbr-ing and talking abt you.no matter if that's right or not.
i'm actually happy.
cuz i know you love me.
even if you dont say it.
even if you have a diff way of expressing it.
thankyou(: you guys are such a blessing:D
i'm actually happy.
cuz i know i'm wanted.
even if you call me at weird timings
and start talking to me randomly.
thankyou(: for treating me as someone you can be very comfortable and carefree with:D
i'm actually happy.
cuz i'm recognised for my efforts.
even if it's in such a way that i'm pissed with.
thankyou(: for giving me a chance:D
YES I LOVE YOU DEAR
i think my life would suck without you guys. like what am i gonna do man.
HAHA.
today is sort of like aguides sec 4s last day. omg so sad.
i saw them crying.
so heartbreaking.
i love you qianci and huiling((:
you guys are damn awesome.
and thanks sharon,
i'll jiayou! :D
TWM is gonna drain me a lot.
but since y'all believe so much in me,
i shouldnt let you and myself down. ((:
and thanks iylia, i think i feel much better after talking to you.
same goes to
jingwen.i'm pretty touched by your gestures :DD
py and jingyi for organising this initiative. cuz i found what i was looking for :D
jiaying, for being so supportive:D
gen, for helping to relieve my stress :D
kiran, for just being such an awesome snd thoughtful friend:D
perini, for always providing unique experiences:D
dinah, for encouraging me:D
jiamei, for opening my eyes to the world.:D
glenice, for making me laugh all the time :D
mz, for being fearless and not hide who she really is:D
jiahui, for being so steady and guai! haha role model:D
hm yea, ok i think i just love everyone !
omg i just looked at the picture.i cant believe what i did last time.
and yea, i dont owe you anything. but you do :D
YYY
for a better tomorrow;
-23:07
Saturday, 3 April 2010
♥
on good friday, 2 APRIL 2010
vanessa lost a friend.
not that i'm even willing, but you treat it like it's no big deal.
i still dont know if ytd was a correct decision.
my heart says it wasnt. but my mind tells me it was.
but the circumstances didnt allow it in the first place.
or izzit just because i was such a coward? afraid of getting hurt again.
didnt want it to turn into disappointment, because i didnt believe and trust you enough?
but whether i avoid it or not, wont the end be all the same?
you cant see my heart bleeding. -not that you even care.
kor says that maybe you did that cuz you were trying to be sensitive to my feelings.
but then it comes across to me as insensitive and uninterested.
i dont believe that you were even trying to fake it so that i'll hate you.
it's so real. you've turned into a complete stranger. i dont know you anymore.
no one can understand how i feel.
you were special, like no other.
i finally get what they mean by taking a piece of their heart away.
it hurts, it really does.
i've got too many questions on my mind right now. yet i dont have any answers.
if there is one thing that i really wish for now,
I WANT YOU BACK.
just treat me like you used to.carefree, no pressure.
but will this day even come. sigh
thanks kor, glen and perini for trying to comfort and stand up for me :D
(although glen & p's initial reaction was actually a scolding. LOl)
oh anyway, for the past week.
sat 27 march
appreciation dinner! :D
yea i have to admit i look nicee! LOL so ego but whatever.
the outfit was awesome! HAHA but the hair and face was DAMN SCREWED within 2 hours.
so wasted. cuz too many hours already then the hair started curling back and the fringe was !@#$%. make up was pretty smudged. ROFL. and my eyes looked bloodshot cuz maybe the contacts too dry. anyway had fun laa! :DD i think a few ppl got freaked out when they saw me. LOL, so interesting man! like vanessa actually wore designer HEELS and a freaking awesome dress! wow. HEHEHEH AND OH MY GOD.
JINWEN STOOD BEHIND ME FOR AT LEAST 3 MINUTES.
it is such a to-die-for moment.
i didnt dare to really turn behind cuz i was blushing like mad. LOL
oh the heels made me taller, but i still lost to him by quite a lot in terms of height-.-
and yes, melvin and jinwen danced to telephone too! OMG SO HOT.
(i'm trying to learn the original telephone dance now! rofl)
thursday, 1 april
BAND CONCERT!
omg so awesome! went there with mz to support perini :DDD whoo!
so embarrassing sia.
i told mz:
" aiya we wont get lost de laa. i good in geog leh. anyway this is singapore-.-"
HA, ironically we got lost.
had to ask mrs poh and mrs koh for directions. hahaha *blush*
and during the concert interval,bean found me and told me he didnt get lost. like what the..
i lost to a foreigner.-.- LOL what a joke.
AH perini kenna blocked by those boards from where we were sitting lor. so irritating.
anyway the music damn amazing :DDD
the emcees played april fools day joke on us, and i fell for it. HAHAH OMG
friday, 2april
I WENT TO CHURCH! lol
with jiamei and her cell grp:D
and can you believe how small this world is!
-glen said she saw me when she was in one of the buses that passed by.LOL
-jiamei's cell grp leader actually knows my mom. OMG
CHC ppl are damn amazing laa.all so friendly, auto talk to me. HAHA.
i didnt even really have to msg kor all the time to kill boredom. lol but nvm la, since he's bored? O.o and i did what i did cuz i was sitting next to shawn.not convenient okayy. and any idea how big expo hall is? i have to rush out and beat the incoming crowd leh just to answer leh, provided i even have the courage to.
I LOVE CHC DRAMAS!!
it's so awesome. this year easter drama is LIFE-BOOK.
damn cute lor, like jesus got name card de siaa! HAHAHAHAH omg. so hip
and then the trio of adrain,lucas and the guy i dunno what the name just blows ppl away!
PARODY OF BAD ROMANCE?
HAHAHAHAH nice one!! but i got more distracted by the shaking of the butt. ROFL
THEY DAMN DRAMA CAN! :DDD
wa and got angels that 'zipline' down this year. LOL and roman soldiers in camouflaged uni. so cutee!! and yes, the dunno what the body suit really remind me acrobats! HAHA I MISS YOU HSH,jiwang and yanning! (((:
i think the whole day, i cried bucket-loads. cuz i was touched, and upset.
jm looked freaked out when she saw. so drama? haha:D
although i strongly believe that i have an untapped part of dramtic talent, THAT WAS GENUINE OKAY. like who wants to cry for fun in front of so many ppl-.-
sat, 3 april
received a call from kiran saying she's back in sg!
HAHAHA I MISSED YOU!
CONGRATZ ANDSS CHOIR FOR BEING CHAMPION IN YOUR CATEGORY! whoo:D
italy sounds so awesome.
i am blessed (:
to have friends and family who support me.
and very flattered(: LOL
amazing week. i've got at least 8 ppl saying i'm pretty. aw.
such a miracle, or sth is wrong. =P lol like thanks for lying if you were:D
okay good night!
vanessa is ever so lazy to post photos.
YYY
for a better tomorrow;
-23:35
