why we always look so unglamm in photos t.t
tlg offloaded plenty of goods onto me earlier O.O and the bag of clothes from my other mama weighs 3KG :o
sooner or later i may demand a new wardrobe cus the current one is bursting!! hahahha.
i love my brown bear :ppp
and i FINALLY got to officially meet ppl from his circle. hahaha!! (it's about time rightt)
year 2 sem 2 has concluded!!!
come to think of it, it wasn't as bad as i thought it would be. i guess it's true that theres no point in worrying, since it doesnt add an hour to my life if i do so:p
God has been faithful throughout, making sure that i never fight my battles alone.
*the more detailed version of the earlier thankyou post*
when i had the health scare:
it felt horrible to be 'caged up', being poked a few times daily by needles, having to eat only healthy food, having an appetite so poor that i had to throw away nice western food (boohoo), having sleep interrupted by blood pressure checks and the drip machine alarm going off, enduring night sweats (even in an aircon room) because i was advised to not take antipyretics unless really necessary, having to live with the confusion of what was happening to my body and the panic of not being able to return to sch O.O
but im thankful for
-the caring team of nurses at ktph ! sometimes i wonder with the kind of work/shifts that they have to do, how are they able to maintain their energy levels and smiles. i really enjoyed their company and gentle touch! it's really eyeopening whenever i come across people with passion for what they are doing.
-AND AND THANK GOD for the free upgrade to the single aircon ward!!!! it made my stay much more pleasant and less restraining for both myself and my visitors. teeehee
-my mama, the sisters, and everyone else who remembered and kept me in prayer.
-my family who had to shuttle between work/sch and ktph, modifying their schedules to be with me even though there were pressing deadlines to meet. and also dealing with the anxiety of my condition and erm, my tantrums O.O
-tlg who had to perform an intense level of lg duties for a week. hahahah!! and probably found a new love for $2 chicken rice in the process as well :p i know im someone who complains about hardly being able to see my lg so hehehe i was really happy even though i also felt bad for him ! congratz tlg for pulling through a major milestone moment :p
-my leaders who went the extra mile to visit me personally despite them staying almost1hr away from yishun. and their concern which stretched beyond that one week: helping me to get back on track for qt, giving me more freedom this sem so tht i wont have burnout, and also a customised 'health welfare pack'. hahahah!!!
-friends from nus that made it a point to keep me updated on happenings and also scan notes, download readings etc. thanks for personally travelling all the way even though yall live sooooo farrr aiyo! especially thankful for wr because she is one of the rare gem of a friend. i call myself blessed that i can say i have at least one true friend in my uni days:D
-the bff because i know that she is really a super 大忙人 hahaha!!! and yay i scored an additional meetup for free :p
-all my visitors!!! because life in the ward can be boring after some time. x.x i appreciate the conversations and entertainment. oh and the gifts!! fruits and jelly taste super wonderful LOL. and yea it sucks that yishun is nowhere near anyone so im truly thankful for the effort.
during the sem i had the privilege of working with ppl both old and new. despite my apprehension of working tgt as a clique, i am so glad that we are still intact even with the uneven workload each of us shouldered O.O im thankful that these are not people who stick to me because i can benefit their grades or what in some way. in fact, im the opposite x.x plus i didnt exactly do much. so yea, i guess friends give and take, try to accommodate each other. we can be temporarily frustrated with each other but our friendship overrides all that! :D
out of the new ppl ive met this sem, im the most thankful for HQ! i rmbred how out of place i felt during my first indo lecture (which was the one in week2 since i missed the first one due to my hospital stay) because everyone seemed to alr have a partner and were progressing ahead of me in the language. i rmbred this thought crossing my mind: seriously how can lang mods be fun like what ppl say. i dont think im gonna enjoy this module ):
but God placed hq in the same lecture n tutorial as me :DDD i find it all the more amazing because most ppl take the mod with friends except.... both of us O.O HAHAHAH!!! so yup i guess He had it all planned out :p to have a fellow sister in Christ to learn tgt with. thankful for her patience in teaching me what i had missed in class, correcting me time and again for my horrible pronunciation of the alphabets in indo HAHA , encouraging me not to give up even though im like super cui in oral (and yayy im so glad our oral went relatively well ytd!! praying tgt before the exam worked:p),etc. gonna miss her!!! ):
AND WOW I REALLY LOVE LEARNING INDO!! super blessed to be under one of the best lecturers/tutors around.
in my sch life there are not many teachers that i look up to. there are teachers that have a reputation for being the best in teaching whatever subject, but i find that i was never inspired by them. i guess it matters a lot to me whether the teacher believes in my individual potential to do well, not whether the teacher has a fantastic kpi/ received accolades /years of experience. so yea, it's super rare to find someone like tht especially in uni so i really appreciate ibu agnes a lot!!
and even though i initially didnt want to take BI (TH tried hard to psycho me to take it with her before cors opened LOL), ive grown really fond of it!! might even consider BI2 next sem :p
so THANK GOD the other gems were way too expensive, such tht i had no choice but to take BI. HAHAHAH.
overall this sem was enjoyable! and much more manageable!!
tlg taught me how to say no to others and to decide for myself what is essential and nonessential. more and more each day, i also understand myself more clearly. learning abt my personality type, what i truly value and want to do .
i hope that finals will go well. im not doing well in geog but i hope that i can still somehow salvage it.
i hope that interviews will go well. because i want to challenge myself this hols.
im excited for baptism this sat ! for friends and family to witness this moment.
and also because tlg and i would have crossed the 8.5month milestone mark :D
hmm im tired so i shall end this longwinded post abruptly. hehe
ps congratz tlg on your award(: really happy for you!
many questions fill my mind;
many fears grip me.
doubts surface as dusk arrives
and i lay here, paralysed.
"it's better to be alone than to be lonely in a group." i couldnt agree more!
today was quite disappointing ):