#thestruggleisreal
especially if you add on 'spiritual life, commitments', split 'Family' into 'my family' and 'my other half's family' and consider tht close friends are split evenly into 4post-tertiary institutions. o.o hahahaha.
sometimes i wished others knew the entire picture of what's going on in my life. it's difficult when many assume tht im supposedly "usually very free" just because i somehow can avail myself to attend courses/meetings/outings/events/meet project deadlines etc almost 95% of the time.
i dont blame others because i dont know their full story either. and everyone has their internal struggles and sacrifices tht they make which im unaware of. but i just hope tht ppl will stop assuming tht they know mine.
anw the main pt of this post is not to rant, but to highlight unfortunately tht society seems to have defined busyness = success. 'Being busy' shldn't be a badge of honour at all! And i pray tht i will avoid tht lie like the plague. It shldn't be purely abt selfish ambition.
im busy because i want to work hard n give othrrs the best tht i can, and i feel tht tht shld be the right thing to do. of course i admit i dont do things perfectly because erm, a day only has 24hours hahahha. which is why being able to be highly efficient in doing things is sth tht i really desire!!! so tht no area/person shld be neglected. but since i dont have tht ability, ive learnt to just deal with it and be thankful tht at least im blessed with strong schedule-planning skills (but it still means i have to learn to sacrifice certain things like sleep, family outinga， and meeting friends every now and then. hahaha. oops maybe im not such a great planner aft all😅😅😅).
in any case, it's a true blessing if i can obtain the grace and patience of others whenever i disappoint.
sorry if ive ever disappointed you, or made you qn if i value our relationship. i wished i could do more for you but hmm...... sorry tht im limited by my own strength.
ive only sustained thus far + able to maintain relatio ships all because God has been gracious to me.
i've grown in appreciation for recess week because even if it doesn't equal to a true break, i'm thankful for whatever little breathing space I can get away from school.
what a luxury to be able to enjoy an aftnn nap aft a month! :DD and also the rare day tht im at home in the morning to watch the taiwan soap drama lol.
it feels so burdensome to have 4 consecutive-day midterms + interview, on top of the usual stuff next week. im slightly regreting taking 4 mods with weekly tutorials cus haha as an arts student im #dying. and im finding it difficult to reschedule my classes so tht i can attend the africa fieldtrip info talk. hmm.
anw at the end of the day, learning contentment and having a grateful heart is impt. i felt tht it was a blessing in disguise tht i went for the geog career talk. it really helped me to appreciate my major better haha. especially since ive been feeling so lost in it for quite some time.
ok, gonna target for a good and productive week ahead ! (since tlg pangseh me in sg lol)
*ps i would like to post a video of my guitar-playing soon! and if i'm really motivated, maybe i will practise my web design knowledge to create my own site hahah*
photos (not in order):
ge3242 fieldtrip to little guilin
sent jw off to aussie
i have a MAJOR soft spot for pretty things! 😍
because maybe after all... i CAN! :D
sometimes i find it mildly embarrassing when i cant keep up with the others during workshops but haha i cant let tht bother me.
