Saturday, 3 April 2010
♥
on good friday, 2 APRIL 2010
vanessa lost a friend.
not that i'm even willing, but you treat it like it's no big deal.
i still dont know if ytd was a correct decision.
my heart says it wasnt. but my mind tells me it was.
but the circumstances didnt allow it in the first place.
or izzit just because i was such a coward? afraid of getting hurt again.
didnt want it to turn into disappointment, because i didnt believe and trust you enough?
but whether i avoid it or not, wont the end be all the same?
you cant see my heart bleeding. -not that you even care.
kor says that maybe you did that cuz you were trying to be sensitive to my feelings.
but then it comes across to me as insensitive and uninterested.
i dont believe that you were even trying to fake it so that i'll hate you.
it's so real. you've turned into a complete stranger. i dont know you anymore.
no one can understand how i feel.
you were special, like no other.
i finally get what they mean by taking a piece of their heart away.
it hurts, it really does.
i've got too many questions on my mind right now. yet i dont have any answers.
if there is one thing that i really wish for now,
I WANT YOU BACK.
just treat me like you used to.carefree, no pressure.
but will this day even come. sigh
thanks kor, glen and perini for trying to comfort and stand up for me :D
(although glen & p's initial reaction was actually a scolding. LOl)
oh anyway, for the past week.
sat 27 march
appreciation dinner! :D
yea i have to admit i look nicee! LOL so ego but whatever.
the outfit was awesome! HAHA but the hair and face was DAMN SCREWED within 2 hours.
so wasted. cuz too many hours already then the hair started curling back and the fringe was !@#$%. make up was pretty smudged. ROFL. and my eyes looked bloodshot cuz maybe the contacts too dry. anyway had fun laa! :DD i think a few ppl got freaked out when they saw me. LOL, so interesting man! like vanessa actually wore designer HEELS and a freaking awesome dress! wow. HEHEHEH AND OH MY GOD.
JINWEN STOOD BEHIND ME FOR AT LEAST 3 MINUTES.
it is such a to-die-for moment.
i didnt dare to really turn behind cuz i was blushing like mad. LOL
oh the heels made me taller, but i still lost to him by quite a lot in terms of height-.-
and yes, melvin and jinwen danced to telephone too! OMG SO HOT.
(i'm trying to learn the original telephone dance now! rofl)
thursday, 1 april
BAND CONCERT!
omg so awesome! went there with mz to support perini :DDD whoo!
so embarrassing sia.
i told mz:
" aiya we wont get lost de laa. i good in geog leh. anyway this is singapore-.-"
HA, ironically we got lost.
had to ask mrs poh and mrs koh for directions. hahaha *blush*
and during the concert interval,bean found me and told me he didnt get lost. like what the..
i lost to a foreigner.-.- LOL what a joke.
AH perini kenna blocked by those boards from where we were sitting lor. so irritating.
anyway the music damn amazing :DDD
the emcees played april fools day joke on us, and i fell for it. HAHAH OMG
friday, 2april
I WENT TO CHURCH! lol
with jiamei and her cell grp:D
and can you believe how small this world is!
-glen said she saw me when she was in one of the buses that passed by.LOL
-jiamei's cell grp leader actually knows my mom. OMG
CHC ppl are damn amazing laa.all so friendly, auto talk to me. HAHA.
i didnt even really have to msg kor all the time to kill boredom. lol but nvm la, since he's bored? O.o and i did what i did cuz i was sitting next to shawn.not convenient okayy. and any idea how big expo hall is? i have to rush out and beat the incoming crowd leh just to answer leh, provided i even have the courage to.
I LOVE CHC DRAMAS!!
it's so awesome. this year easter drama is LIFE-BOOK.
damn cute lor, like jesus got name card de siaa! HAHAHAHAH omg. so hip
and then the trio of adrain,lucas and the guy i dunno what the name just blows ppl away!
PARODY OF BAD ROMANCE?
HAHAHAHAH nice one!! but i got more distracted by the shaking of the butt. ROFL
THEY DAMN DRAMA CAN! :DDD
wa and got angels that 'zipline' down this year. LOL and roman soldiers in camouflaged uni. so cutee!! and yes, the dunno what the body suit really remind me acrobats! HAHA I MISS YOU HSH,jiwang and yanning! (((:
i think the whole day, i cried bucket-loads. cuz i was touched, and upset.
jm looked freaked out when she saw. so drama? haha:D
although i strongly believe that i have an untapped part of dramtic talent, THAT WAS GENUINE OKAY. like who wants to cry for fun in front of so many ppl-.-
sat, 3 april
received a call from kiran saying she's back in sg!
HAHAHA I MISSED YOU!
CONGRATZ ANDSS CHOIR FOR BEING CHAMPION IN YOUR CATEGORY! whoo:D
italy sounds so awesome.
i am blessed (:
to have friends and family who support me.
and very flattered(: LOL
amazing week. i've got at least 8 ppl saying i'm pretty. aw.
such a miracle, or sth is wrong. =P lol like thanks for lying if you were:D
okay good night!
vanessa is ever so lazy to post photos.
YYY
for a better tomorrow;
-23:35
