Friday, 9 July 2010
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i'm down on my luck.
and i had to buck the trend.
oral was so hard okayy)):
zombie was 'muahaha'-ing me cuz i muahaha-ed him 2 days back.-.-
yea, muahaha all you want.i know i was gloating over having an extra day over you-.-
but still, thanks for the luck. and to everyone who were so sweet as to wish me ytd and right before the exam(((:
sadd i couldnt attend seniors farewell.
iylia was like super sweet to save me a slice of pizza
(even though there was no guarantee that i could make it back before 4.30pm)
thanks! love you:D
i must learn to not judge ppl so easily.
cuz ppl really surprise me everyday.
those that are labelled 'slackers' by others, it aint always the case:D
i'm really heartened and appreciative. at least i know my efforts to help you guys didnt go down the drain. i've found the correct approach and i'm glad it's reciprocated.
thankyou! ,seriously. (((:
however i'm aghast at how everything is just directed at me.
stuff, whether or not it's under my charge, i still have to give an explanation.
ppl have seen how stressed my this week was,
and have definitely noticed that stuff always gets thrown to me.
izzit just because you find me really responsible? or i'm just a scapegoat?
i'm so sorry for making everyone worried.
i know my out of the blue silent moments with the stressed out face and tired voice over the phone really freaked y'all out.
but really, it's tough.
a day only has 24 hrs.
a year only has 365 days.
i dont have enough time to give to everyone.
unknowingly, youth day was the last day of my freedom.
it's gonna be intensive from now on.
afternoon lessons, cca,deadlines,CA2,training,napfa, o lvl SPA,LC,written,etc
and i still dont get why i have to sacrifice my time to go for cip.
the biggest reason why i joined chingay 2010 was so that i could quickly claim my 100 hours and then focus on studies after that. apparently, not gonna be the case,
i just find it real unfair.
and i'm only left with 2 days to work a miracle.
i dont even know if i can do it.
mom's contemplating abt calling up __ cuz she's worried.
i'm really touched, that ppl care.
although it can be for the stupidest of stuff,
like if i'm sick cuz i over-sweat,
if i'm mental cuz i just laugh to myself randomly
if i have 'super growth disorder'', etc.
to clear the air, i'm not anorexic or bulimic.
my metabolism is just sky-rocket high.
and they say that's cuz i 've got more muscle than fats.
LOL like seriously??
my mental state of health.
horrible.
depressed?
almost.
mood swings?
sort of.
one day, i may just develop a split personality.
the stuff that i have special connection to are like so extreme.
the very emo or the very optimistic.
hm, 2 faces of vanessa O.O
btw, i think guys who get turned off by girls with hearty appetites are gay.
okay bye
YYY
for a better tomorrow;
-23:10
