Tuesday, 13 July 2010
walking into unfamiliar territory♥
smileeeeee((:
let's hope nth will crop up on the actual o lvl spa:D
2 more weeks! ah counting down!
WEEK 4 ONWARDS IS STUPID.
all the best ppl!
thank god my mouth reacts slower than my brain.
cuz i almost 'walao, go n die' -ed JW when i was at 3/6 ytd. LOL
but seriously, he turned around and was packing his bag, then i was sitting right behind him.
almost randomly, the word 'bitch' came out. -.-""
gosh, i thought he was calling me one since i was the only girl around and he was not making eye contact with the 'supposed bitch'. wth?
turns out, our dearest 'bitch' is a guy. diao
i'm so glad my mouth was sealed, if not MAJOR embarrassment. hoho~
and uh, i no longer think it's not a super thing to be sitting behind him:DDDD
awkward, yes. but i think i'm pretty much over it. whoo! go vanessa(:
guess what. debate topic is on anorexia.
like whaaaatt O.O
i read the fact sheet, i do have quite a lot of symptoms.
-attempt to use food and weight to deal with emotional problems
-their concern about their weight is overwhelming
-depression, exam results
-involved in many sch and community activities
-blame themselves if they dont get perfect grades, or if other things in life are not perfect.
-often in bad mood
-hard time concentrating and always thinking abt food
-always hungry
LOL and anorexia's a mental illness.
but to squash claims that i'm suffering from this disorder,
if i'm concerned abt weight, it's abt me being irritatingly underweight.
if i'm in a bad mood, it's cuz of stress.
if i am always hungry, it's because i really am and I WANT TO EAT.
if i go depressed over grades, it's because of the competition. it's because of the dream to make it to a top JC.
therefore conclusion: vanessa's just purely stressed out.
i'm really touched. honestly.
if i could live my life all over again, i'd wish i knew you earlier.
stormy days are just a blessing in disguise.
this is when you know who are the ones that will stand by you.
i want to take psychology. i think i've found my passion.
but mum doesnt exactly encourage it cuz of the much more limited job prospects.
i like to lift ppl up.
which is an irony since i always put myself down.
i am affected badly when others are unhappy. idk why.
it's just that i really cant stand it, i cant understand.
you're making yourself living in a world of lies, delusion.
it's not sth forced upon you, you have a choice.
i just want you to see the truth.
that you are appreciated for who you are(:
god saw your sadness and said " hard times are over."
i got this on 21 feb this year, from the most unexpectated of all ppl.
even though it wasnt very applicable on that day cuz i was still not over the euphoria of chingay, thankyou. it made my day(:
i love myself.
just not the pressure & tough matters i have to handle everyday.
i snack, a lot. momentary pleasure.
i cry, a lot. to let go.
what i'm short of, is just a hug at the right moment.
cuz i cant take it much longer)):
YYY
for a better tomorrow;
-21:39
