no one can comprehend the amount of sadness and frustration im suppressing in my heart right now...
sometimes i wished i was someone else.
someone better. someone more able.
someone less of a burden.
yet even as i try to help myself, i plunge deeper into the darkness.
why oh whyyy );
even the tried n tested remedies,
i have to wean myself off them.
whyyyy. why must life treat me like this.
why must God test me this way time n again.
if im bearing this much pain, does it mean im failing or closer to the light?
tell me.
seeing the same things repeat over n over... are they really supposed to help me? o.o