maybe i take photos in jest because i need to prove to ppl tht im not only rotting away at home (even though thats what my speech seems to suggest)...

i do go out and do things.
i just dont take photos of everything n post them up.

i have work to do as well.
doing bible study and planning a tour may not sound like normal work, but it still requires time and effort.

it's not that i dont want to make myself even more busy, but lately i find it a smack in the face when opportunities show up too late.

why is it tht my company suddenly wants to hire a HR intern.
why is it tht the school's aiesec signup form doesnt work,but ive just found out tht the one at the general website does.
why is it tht when i googled all of these in march/apr, they nvr show up until now.

and it's already midjune lol.

i really wonder why my eyes were made blind to accessing these.

i feel quite upset tht ive missed those opportunities to do something 'more productive' during this break.

just ytd, i found out tht taking special sem is essentially free if i meet certain conditions.
sigh.

too late to sign up for part 2 of special sem as well.

what do all these missed opportunities serve to do for me? more time to take a break and reflect?

i appreciate that.
but is it just me?