#thestruggleisreal
especially if you add on 'spiritual life, commitments', split 'Family' into 'my family' and 'my other half's family' and consider tht close friends are split evenly into 4post-tertiary institutions. o.o hahahaha.
sometimes i wished others knew the entire picture of what's going on in my life. it's difficult when many assume tht im supposedly "usually very free" just because i somehow can avail myself to attend courses/meetings/outings/events/meet project deadlines etc almost 95% of the time.
i dont blame others because i dont know their full story either. and everyone has their internal struggles and sacrifices tht they make which im unaware of. but i just hope tht ppl will stop assuming tht they know mine.
anw the main pt of this post is not to rant, but to highlight unfortunately tht society seems to have defined busyness = success. 'Being busy' shldn't be a badge of honour at all! And i pray tht i will avoid tht lie like the plague. It shldn't be purely abt selfish ambition.
im busy because i want to work hard n give othrrs the best tht i can, and i feel tht tht shld be the right thing to do. of course i admit i dont do things perfectly because erm, a day only has 24hours hahahha. which is why being able to be highly efficient in doing things is sth tht i really desire!!! so tht no area/person shld be neglected. but since i dont have tht ability, ive learnt to just deal with it and be thankful tht at least im blessed with strong schedule-planning skills (but it still means i have to learn to sacrifice certain things like sleep, family outinga， and meeting friends every now and then. hahaha. oops maybe im not such a great planner aft all😅😅😅).
in any case, it's a true blessing if i can obtain the grace and patience of others whenever i disappoint.
sorry if ive ever disappointed you, or made you qn if i value our relationship. i wished i could do more for you but hmm...... sorry tht im limited by my own strength.
ive only sustained thus far + able to maintain relatio ships all because God has been gracious to me.